hehe...thats classic gulas!

being sober sometimes plays weird games with my mind...
like I establish this pattern of not drinking, slip into it effortlessly albeit after an initial shaky start!

so there I am gettin' around sober, not drinking...not thinking. Then this dopy little voice in my head goes..."sober??...huh?, well how bout' that buddy?...what is it exactly, that you are sober from huh?.....that wouldn't be alcohol would it?...nice cool beer!!...that kind of thing..huh??"

what? (I suddenly think),was that!!?

...and again
(dopy little voice sounding dumber even)
"that wouldn't be that drinkin' thing you done before that you be gettin' all sober about now would it be would it huh??...well huh??"

so suddenly...inexplicabababably I have drinking 'front and centre' in my head...my nose may as well be a bar stool and I'm sitting on it looking through my eyes directly at my frontal lobe...imagining the pleasant re-adjustments that have been achieved there before!

This is what happens to me...it's my description of complacency, inevitably brought about by how aggressively I aquire sobriety following a relapse. I dump my alcoholism in some dark dank backyard in my mind....then I bury it.

so maybe the dopy little voice that just gets dumber the more it says...maybe it's helped me today?


made me think....and I didn't drink