I hope I'm not confusing everyone with my post. The marriage T that I am seeing for couples therapy (our last session was yesterday) I called in despair a few weeks back as I had a flood of feelings come up that relate to CSA and it was a reaction I had after my husband and I were 'together'. Emotions, Nightmare etc.... I asked her if she could be my new T and she said no she can not but she could help me get some relief with EMDR. She said with a couple of sessions she could help me without having to know any 'details'. At my appt yesterday with her and my husband I said lets give it a try. It can't hurt. I then asked my husband to leave the room and we tried EMDR and it was awful but helped my emotions surface at the same time. Emotions that were buried/didn't know I even had or still had were there.

While marriage T could never be my solo T (unless my husband and I resolved that we would never go to her for marriage counseling and we would have to sign something etc... There's legalities involved if something ever came up and she had to go to court to testify (not likely but just there's legalities etc..).

- she could help me with a little emdr as relates to my marriage etc...

Before I left I felt emotionally drained and unsure about it all. I told her that I would think about it and get back to her. She told me there are other people in the local area that do EMDR and talk therapy. or I could do some more EMDR with her and talk therapy with my old T across the hall. Or skip EMDR all together and go to old T or someone else. Talk therapy is much slower but feels very safe. EMDR is very intense for me and scary. I don't know if I can continue with a few more sessions of EMDR. I want to run back to the safety of my old T and no one else. Ugh! I'm starting school in a few weeks. I really don't have time for this!