My dear dear special. I don't need to tell you how much I care...I am certain you know that I do, even though you feel like no one cares..And I think that's what confuses some people, or what people can't handle sometimes, the contradiction of perhaps knowing one thing but feeling another. (But to me this is perfectly possible.) Maybe they just think they should be able to say something and instantly make everything better. And because this doesn't happen, they don't know what to do or expect. But you are not responsible for how they handle that.
I have never felt like you push me away. I am right here, I love you and I care about you. I am truly grateful you're my friend special