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Sorry you are struggling. I so hope that you get to feeling better. I myself am having a hard time. Just don't give up hope.
Take Care

KRIS
As I sit in front of this computer screen, I meet and learn and am helped by those I have never seen.
If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!