(((whofitsin))) I have one. You have an illness that is trying its best to take you. If you had another illness you would fight it. Depression is an awful illiness that takes alot of our time to fight. It tells us many false, non-trueths, so that we give in to it. I have been in your place before. If you need help get on the phone call a hot line, keep posting here or go to your local hospital. Wish I could be where you are so I could help you through this. Out of the three above I chose the hospital, 3 times. Good luck may you have a better day.