I know that EMDR would never work for me, and I don't want to ever try it.

It's not that I am opposed to EMDR, and I am aware of the research that shows that it is effective for PTSD, and I am theoretically an excellent candidate for it.

It's just that for me, I know that the only way I can ever truly be free of the things from my CSA past that continue to influence me in the present (especially relationally) is to identify what they are, talk about them, and watch the grip of it slowly release from my life. That is a process that makes sense to me. That is a process I have gone through over and over. It works for me. That is healing to me. EMDR as a process does not *feel* like healing to me. That is all.

The good thing is that I doubt that trying a few sessions of it will hurt anything, and people often report feeling better in the days after EMDR. But don't feel like you have to do it (as I'm sure you know).

Anne