Okay, the first day back at work after I'd been off sick with stress, anxiety etc and then on Christmas holiday has been slow and I didn't have much energy and I did cry at one point.
ON a positive note, I had a much more constructive conversation with my line manager than I had had in ages and think we can now move forward.
Things at work might now really become better. Motivation and energy levels might rise again, too, as a result. I'm hopeful. Just very tired, but I can accept that.