i also always do what's expected of me. In fact, that habit-pattern is so bad that when I DON'T do what's expected of me, I believe that i'm making progress. Whew!

I sat out something recently that I SHOULD have gone to, in part because I knew it would be triggering and that I did not have the resources to comfort myself afterwards.

So I stayed home but I usually go...and then I drive home, and I feel totally disconnected.

I'm glad you made it home safely!!!!