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Jan 03, 2012, 06:58 PM
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Member Since: Nov 2011
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[quote=Bereana123;2141024] I have been depressed for the past 5-6 years now.
A little backround....
At one point much earlier on, I told my mom how I was feeling and that I had thoughts about ending my life sometimes. She felt hurt and guilty, but promised that she would take me to get help or at least see a doctor. She never did- maybe she was ashamed of my problem. Over a year later, I admitted to being depressed/suicidal on a routine check-up questionaire. The doctor saw this and told me that extreme moods and emotions are just part of adolescence and nothing to worry about.
I feel like I've been watching someone else live my life through a darkened screen that I can't remove. Sometimes I think this will just have to be how my life is- no joy, constantly exhausted, dull, and painful when the numbness wears down to much. But I want so much more! I want to really live my life.
First of all, I am so sorry you didn't get the help you needed when you reached out. Not all physicians are adequately trained in recognizing clinical depression. Please go to another doctor. Feeling emotionally numb can be alleviated by medication and/or therapy. When a person feels well, they feel a multiple range of emotions. I tried everything over too many years to beat depression on my own. I found relief, finally, when I took the very first pill of Citalopram. The difference was amazing and still is. My family wishes I had started it years sooner, as do I. Go get what you need; you have a good life ahead of you. Live it fully! Susan Quinn 
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