Improving, I do understand what you're saying here. But you also said, "the little me" is the one who had these thoughts about wanting so desperately to be loved, nurtured and cared for by your therapist within the confines of her home. It's that little self that isn't able to truly grasp the other things you speak about. Your more adult self clearly understands and grasps the ultimate betrayal of that client by the one person who was suppose to protect and care for her when she wasn't able to understand the hurt and pain behind getting what she really couldn't handle!

YOUR ethical and loving therapist understands this. She loves and nurtures you in a safe and contained way. She understands on a deep level your need for her to shown her dedication and caring, but she also understands the harm that could happen to you if she gave into your intense, "little" you needs. She values your safety and security above all else. Those are the qualities that show how much she cares for you and believes you are worth the special care and consideration she is giving you. Your therapist understands the need to not break the rules because she is thinking about you --her needs and/or wants are not a consideration here . . .unlike the other therapist who cared only about his wants and needs . .. a careless brutality that trampled all over the other client's deep and very sacred need to be held safe within the boundaries of a therapeutic relationship.

You have a very loving and caring therapist.