I've not been able to have therapy for a while now (bloody waiting lists on the NHS) but I always find it odd how I behave in T. For example, I don't want to show off how cracked I am, so I try to be normal. But I end up overdoing it, so it's obvious something's not up. I can't make eye contact, for example, and as you say, I stare at the floor. At the same time I keep thinking of the things I should say... then don't say them. Then feel stupid as sin for not saying anything, then realise that I've probably come across far weirder than if I'd just relaxed and told them what I'm really like.