Mylifeisdepressing! I'm so sorry you are feeling this way!
As much as I know as it doesn't feel like it... even if you can only recognize it intellectually... Do you realize your depression is taking your thought processes for a ride? Part of why it's so "good" at doing that is how very real and logical it makes distorted thinking seem.
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Originally Posted by Mylifeisdepressing
...I hate myself and the people around me who can't see through the mask and I hate everything, I hate the whole world. Why must I live this way?
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... I am trying to decide if I will talk to my parents or guidance counselor soon, because I know that I need help...
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DEFINITELY talk to them. You know it is the right thing to do. Consider if you will... how would someone see through the mask? Really see through it? Much as there are times when it would be helpful, people
aren't mind readers. The only way we can really give them a chance to help is to let them know. Talk to them. The way that
we know how you are feeling is because you write... "talking" on the computer. And that allows
us the chance to help and empathize as we can. It's true IRL too. If talking itself (as opposed to writing) feels more difficult, consider printing out what you wrote here. Do you think that would help?
Sending lots of good thoughts to you
