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Originally Posted by KazzaX
No, I don't feel stuff very often. I started off not feeling anything at all (I used to intellectualise every single thing and had anhedonia for about 19 years) and then I went to the first T and she helped me to feel something every now and then. So now i feel things every now and then but that's it.
My current T knows this but I don't think she realizes the scope of the anhedonia. It's not that I have feelings and can't identify them - I just have very few or don't care about most issues.. however you want to define it. Anger I can feel and sadness and frustration but thats about it.
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How sad, I'm so sad for you. I think there is more to you, it's just you have been "not" feeling it for so long, that you assume it doesn't exist. But it does, all the other emotions exist, they are just getting squelched. Squelched so fast you don;t even realize they rear their ugly heads. My guess is that you have been hurt very much in the past. And I am so sorry for you. Unfortunately, I know of which I speak. I did the same thing for so long, and yet it is hard for me to feel that way any more. I opened myself up and I am the better for it, but I must say that the bad feelings get just as intense as the good feelings. Whatever is best for you is your decision. I just hope you even entertain the mere thought that there may be more to you than you suspect. Because I think there is. Best of luck to you and warm wishes.
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I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.
---Robert Frost