I tried to get there - I walked half way there and had to come back home.

My psychologist spent a lot of time talking about it yesterday, but I still couldn't do it, was so hard yesterday as well.

I emailed the teacher to say I was ill - so I don't know if I'll be able to start next week.

It looks like I'm going to need my medication to do anything. I never used to need medication, sprays or my knife - I just needed myself.

My mam is just making me feel like a failure - It's not like I asked for this.

There is so much going through my head - I'm just trying to keep control of it all.