sorry i didn't know where to post this.


hello. i'm ashley.i'm 24 and im new to this forum i found by accident. i have been having these strange feelings for quite some time, i can't take it anymore. i have hid them for long because i'm embarrassed because i don't know how to describe them.
maybe someone can help me that knows what im talking about.
i feel as if im constantly in a dream,haze. Like im in a glass pane. it's strange. it's worse in public. I can see and hear people, and life going on around me, but i'm not part of it , im just observing it like im watching a movie of myself, just going through the motions, but i don't feel in control of my thoughts,words, or actions, it just flows out of me. because of this i can't think straight. i lose track of time, i have always had trouble remembering things, even simple instructions, because of this it's worse. i can't even complete simple things,like clean my house. i blank out and forget what im doing and lose track of time, i feel like im not here. my mother yells at me and says im just stupid and lazy or on dope because i dont finish things or forgot simple intsructions she ask me to do. but i know somethings wrong and can't describe it. so i sleep all day because im so afraid. i take forever even going to the store for a few things because i forget what i came for, i wander around like im in a haze,sometimes it feels like i can't feel my body because i feel lightheaded and my body feels light,like a dream and everything seems fuzzy, or sometimes too vivid. i know im not psycotic, but im just as scared. nothing seems real. I feel i'm observing myself in third person or something.
i don't even know how to even approach my therapist with this.
hopefully someone can give me a idea what might be going with me, and tell me i'm not a freak. my mother already thinks im whack job, so i can't tell her.
its affecting my ability to function at times. i feel detached from people and myself, i feel like i don't know myself or have control of myself. please help.