hello. thank you for responding to my post. and for showing interest. as distressed as i am its good to know that someone at least may have idea what meant be going on.i probably should explained a little more. is there anything in particular you would like to know? i have been diagnosed with depression,anxiety and other medical issues. as far as what's behind it, i'm not sure, i have so much going on. i have dealt with emotional abuse all my life(even now) mostly from my mother. i grew up in a stressful household because my father abadoned me as a child, and my mother always took out her frustrations on me,still does. i had been having chronic pain issues for 3 years, which finally was diagnosed as fibromyalgia. endless tests came up negative, so nobody belived that i constantly hurt all over. i was accused of being a hypocondraic and lazy.that i was just making up excuses because im unable to work, which is also embarrassing beacause i live at home and can't support myself.
there is more to tell but i didn't want to bore you or overwhelm you in one post. but it feels good to vent to someone, because i don't have any friends, my family is all divided.. i have always struggled with social anxiety and have been a loner. is there anything else you would like to know? you've been most helpful already.