hi, (((DamienV)))

thanks for your post. i am gay. when i was young i thought i was a girl in a boys body. it was not easy, my parents were catholic and conservative and my only siblings were younger brothers. i never have really figured out if i am really gay or trans but settled for being gay. in the gay community there are cross-dressers / drag queens. perhaps, until you are old enough to opt for transgender surgery, you can go the drag queen route. hopefully, it will help you keep in touch with yourself - maybe even make friends - until you are old enough to decide if you want trans surgery.

funny story: my parents sent me to an all-boys catholic high school to "toughen me up." i stayed to myself out of fear. years later, i ran into someone from high school in a gay bar who had been well-connected and even served as class president for 3 years. he started telling me stories of who was gay, who was bi and who was a drag queen. i was shocked to learn that someone i had lunch with everyday was a drag queen and i never even knew. so, you are not alone. gays / bi's / trans are everywhere and in every age group. are you in tillsonburg, ontario? you do know that toronto is a very gay city? you can research it online. perhaps you can find a youth support group there. keep in touch, feel free to PM and hang in there!