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Thanks for the reply! I don't currently have a t but am looking for one atm. I guess that's why it's so hard right now. I am seeing more and more how much my childhood has a role in my current life. I used to think that because my emotions were somehow blocked from my childhood that I was unharmed by the abuse. But that is far from the truth. Everything about me is a result of my childhood. And it wasn't a pleasant childhood in the least so it makes sense that my mind isn't in the best shape right now. It seems that when I am put in certain situations it brings me back to the child like state. Something I really need to work on or it could cause even more damage if I don't learn to manage properly. But why should I have to do so much work to fix something that I did not break? It doesn't seem fair that we have to endure so much as children only to have to relive it with other obstacles as adults, when do the abusers get their time to pay for what they did since we still have to pay for their decisions? I guess it's another unanswered question about child abuse, there are far too many of those!
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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