I can't begin to know how you feel. In my experience most people are not totally either or but there are all kinds of degrees of sexuality. Mostly you need to be the person you are and the one that God made you on the inside. No one else can tell you that. You get to discover that for yourself. I suppose that if I were in your shoes though, I would take my time deciding who I am and learn as much about my self as I could. A lot of people who are rigid about their ideas one way or the other are no nearly as confident as they would like you to believe. I wish for you all the best in your struggle for self identity