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You are very correct. It's so confusing though. When I was first diagnosed it was bipolar and schizophrenic. They soon after added the manic depressive to the list, perhaps to rule out the bipolar since I believe from what I was told schizophrenia and bipolar can mimmic eachother but a big difference is the mania. Well it's clear I have mania and it's rather clear I am "schizophrnic" but really there's no telling which of the schizo disorders I am. I don't think I fit perfectly into schizophrenia or bipolar. I also don't think I fit perfectly into PTSD but anxiety is pretty spot on. I have severe anxiety and always have. But if these are chemical disorders, something wrong mentally that can not be fixed than I wonder how to tell which can be fixed and what can not be fixed?
I guess I am the result of someone who was destined through DNA and through childhood experiences to become this huge messy mixed up puzzle. It kind of seems to me like you have 20 small chains. Like necklaces you wear, if you wear more than one or two they all get knotted together. Well it feels like these disorders are all different necklackes all mixed and tangled around my neck smothering me but I can't figure out how to seperate them and fix them.
It comes with time and work I suppose. If I could narrow those 20 chains down to 3 or 4 chains even, just get it narrowed down to be able to see where the root of these problems are coming from, and I'm sure it's a different root for each problem, it would be much easier for me to figure all of this out. I suppose this is why it takes doctors 8 years to get a psychology degree, nothing is as simple as it seems.
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