A lot of times when I'm waking up from sleep, I feel a shift from sleep to tension...like the tension switch was flipped back on.

I'm not sure that this tension is anything other than energy for life. I feel like I'm vibrating with energy and I really feel like I'm so conditioned to repress my true self in the world that I know by habit that another day mean another cycle of repression.

What releases the tension is being able to get deeply intimate with someone, where we are really flowing with insights, totally free of judgment. That's when I really "forget" myself and feel like life is speaking through me.

I often say something that I didn't know I was going to say, that I hear it for the first time, that it didn't come from me but through me.