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Jan 04, 2012, 07:03 PM
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Member Since: Nov 2011
Posts: 114
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Originally Posted by hankster
Does it FEEL like you? I guess I'm just at a stage in life where looking back at my younger years and saying, I wasn't acting like myself, I was blindly imitating my mother. At my Sweet 16 birthday party (i KNOW!), I had my choice of 3 guys who liked me, I TOTALLY picked the worst one for me. My T asked me what my mother thought of N, and I was like, she didn't even know he existed. But I was so overwhelmed by HER values to have faith in and follow my personal interests - if my mother and brother said something wasn't cool, I didn't do it. I knew they would have thought N wasn't cool, he looked nerdy.
So I'm just wondering what your POSITIVE path is, what are the things you love, that you are talented in and want to devote your life to? Maybe it IS a helping profession. You are logical and articulate and caring. You obviously have a lot going on upstairs. Sometimes when the squeaky wheels are getting the grease, the quiet wheels get in a rut and don't get out.
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Yes. Im pretty much like my mother and I hate that. I know the way I show my love comes from her. I learned with her how to be overprotective. But this is really me. I am like this. No one is original. If it wasnt my mom, it would be someone else. If I was raised by my father I would be more like him. We are a combination of many pieces and these pieces we get from people in our lives. Of course, at first, when we are kids there aren't many people in our lives, so our family is our reference. But growing up we meet other people, people from school, from college, from work and then we can look back and choose what we will keep and what we want to change. I want to change this. I dont want to be like my mother in this aspect. I know how bad it can be for myself and those around me. But it's hard to change...
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