its okay sezzie!
i admit, i purged too, bloody failure. i had 3 meals but dinner was just too much, i had to purge it, for like an hour i felt really good aboiut getting the food out but then i remembered about promising you the 3 meals a day and no purging, so i went and cut myself. im so stupid.

i can trust my auntie alot, and i love her to pieces, but she works alot and i dont know if she will have time to text me or call me every day, she goes abroad alot too, shes a journalist you see, so she does work from home quite alot but she is always doing something, i wouldnt want to hurt her career. im glad youve found someone, im sure i will soon.

yesterday, oh it was so embarrasing, we had to watch this video about buliumia and anorexia, i was sitting there with the 2 girls that know about it in my class and they just kept nudging me, there was all this horrible stuff about choking on stuff and ulcers in your throat and stomach. i dont care about dying, but i dont want to have to go into hospital all the time, im very sorry about your throat problem, is there anything they can do?

im definatly gonna stay in school, i havent missed more than 2 weeks in secondary school which is great cause im doing my GCSE's at the moment, in junior school i was in hospital for 3 months after my second suicide attempt, how long have you missed of university?

ive got mock interviews today, i look so stupid, my school is no uniform, and im in a skirt, high heels, shirt, vest thing and a blazer, i look a laughing stock, i so wish i was your age.

i hope things get better for you, and me for that matter, im too nervous to eat anything this morning, cant blame me. sezzie you seem so cool, and even with your problems, a really nice person, i hope things get better for you, you really deserve it.

siani x