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Originally Posted by Mylifeisdepressing
I decided to post this in Depression because I figured most of us would relate to it well, rather than another category... It might be kind of unrelated, but I really needed to get this all out, so it might turn into a rant. Consider yourself warned. Anyway:
Doesn't it bother you when people talk about someone who committed suicide and say that they were weak or cowardly for killing themself? For instance I was talking to my guitar teacher about Kurt Cobain and my guitar teacher said he shouldn't have committed suicide. "He had everything he wanted," he said. That made me so mad. Kurt was BIPOLAR. He DID NOT have "everything he wanted." He may have been a rock star, but how does that translate to having everything he wanted? He was still human, humans have problems and emotions. I hate it when people look down on others for killing themselves. You can believe that it's wrong, but for heaven's sake, don't criticize people for killing themselves. In no way does it mean that they are weak or cowards. It only means that they we'd going through a lot more emotional pain and turmoil than "normal" people, and it became more than they could cope with, so they took the only way out that they saw. I hate how people who have never experienced this kind of pain criticize people who killed themselves because of it. They have no right; they do not understand it. I say that people who commit suicide are brave for going through what they did, because it takes more strength to pull that trigger than most people could ever imagine.
What are your thoughts on the matter?
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Yes it bothers me. A LOT.
I UNDERSTAND that ones suicidal intentions are dysfunctional and irrational and unhealthy and distorted...but also still RELATE to the pain and hopelessness and logic that everyone/thing else and life would be better if they were gone. It is just not fair that people could reduce all of that pain to "what a pathetic asshole". At the very least, comments like that just proove the point that the person wasnt worthwhile. At a personal level, this just adds to more anxiety/fear... what do others see; what could they say; and while i am a screwed up repulsive mess now, how worthless and hated would i be afterwards.....
Its sick, i know...but thats the point right? That we are sick too, not just bad? right?? I understand that MANY, many people are just overwhelmed with this idea of suicide. Still, its not fair to dismiss or reject others pain, suffering, or their responses/reactions - such disengagement from others just limits the diversity and potential of humanity (kinda along the same vein as
likewater). Plus - on top of everything else - who are *you* to judge, and why that way...?
I still struggle with these desires and its exhausting that this struggle does consider what/how others could think/say/react/judge AS WELL AS the shame, guilt, fear, self-hatred, memories, triggers, worries, what-ifs, shoulds, to-do lists, expectations, comparisons, pain, anger, sadness...
((((to everyone here))))