Hi out there. I'm new to this forum...but in need of some help. I've recently moved to England...this last year I went through a divorce, broke ties permanantely with my family because of past abuse, and am trying to make a new life here.

But I have never felt at such a low point. I was Dx with bipolar about 2 years ago, and they pumped me so full of drugs I didn't even feel like myself. I quit taking the drugs about a year ago, but now my moods are spiraling up and down like crazy and they feel so out of control. Just this morning my fiance came to check on me and it resulted in a crying fit...*sigh* It's so frustrating feeling like I'm on a never ending roller coaster. It's just so exhausting!

I'm searching for people out there to help and give me some guidance and suggestions on how you deal with being bipolar. Last thing I wanna do is get back into taking drugs. But I feel like I'm drowning...I don't know how to take control of this disease!

I just turned 29, have an exciting new life in London. I'm engaged to a WONDERFUL man who supports me (but doesn't quite understand what I'm going through). I have 2 college degrees and am pursuing another one at the University of East London. Have great friends, a bright future, but lately it feels like a chore to wake up in the morning and face another day. Does anyone else feel this way? I get so upset because I KNOW I have a great life, but I don't feel it inside. Could someone please help me? Thank you so much!!! x x x x <font color="#000088"> </font>