Yeah, I can understand this. What we 'feel' to be true can really NOT be true. I keep telling T terrible things about myself and she keeps telling me they're not true. I believe her but I don't believe her. It's like momentarily I feel hope that she's right but then I 'know' she's not because she can't possibly know the whole truth. So, she gently keeps repeating herself and I appreciate that but it's still not sinking in.