Once the hurt pasted regarding my previous posts re: T not havinf sent a card, it took a few days for the hurt to pass. T's response to my email was a comfort, but there was so much going on internally. It was like all my lives flashing before my eyes, what sensation I got the most was the 'luxury' of being hurt but of having a caring response this time round. That's what most of the problem was, not in being hurt, although up until this incident I'd never avtually understood that hurt is as much a part of life as everything else because of so much. Hurt growing up and no comforting arms to help with that that it became something that must be avoided at-all-costs. But this was a release,the hurt was a familar feeling but the caring and genuine well thought out response I received from T really helped me deal with and really feel the hurt knowing there was no spiteful other stnading there relishing my pain. I feel I went trhough something and this time coming through it also. I use to think that if someones good and kind then they should never do anything that causes hurt blah blah blah, I think I have a much better insight into hurt now and how even with best intensions hurt can and does occur, I feel I have room to breath around this whole topic now, before there was no room, everything was B/W around it.