<font color="#00088">Hi Anne (hope that is your name) -

I TOTALLY can relate - as so can others I am sure - to exactly what you are going through....

I, too, was a victim of abuse; this was in more than one way as well... My father is Bipolar as well and lo and behold, he was the one who reaped the pleasures of abusing my sister and myself. I have cut all of them off, just as you did, all bcuz they are money-hungry and could care less whether I am dead or alive...

As far as the meds, these are important. I, too, hate having to be drugged up again; but I'm doing it for MY own good and my own well-being.... In all honesty, I really believe that its nothing but a trial and error with the meds... I'm sure others on here will concur with that statement bcuz it takes trying several meds, sometimes, just to get the right combination....

I'm 28, going on 29, and I WISH I had at least one person supporting of me - not financially per se, but just in general.... I really do not even have ONE person to trust and know will be there for me regardless... Eveyrone right now is against me and my housing situation is about to be terminated yet again due to my inability to work... Hell I'd give anything just to function 'nomrally' for ONE - Just ONE day... As we say, a moment at a time...

I hope this puts you at ease just a bit.. I know there is really nothing to say that would really make it all disappear, but know that you are far from alone. I'm glad you found this forum as this is what we are here for. I just hope that you will realize the medical necessity to possibly start (or re-start) taking the meds in order to better help you. Treatments are a must with this disorder....

You take care and hope to hear from you again... Also, welcome to the group as well. ~N </font>