I used to feel very unhappy about my relationship with my father too, it made me so sad to see him disappointed when I couldn't live up to what I thought were his expectations.
But in the end, what others think of us, even our family, doesn't really matter. You do the best you can. It's all anyone can expect. And some days your best is better than other days. Some days your best is just getting out of bed and cleaning your teeth. Other days it's getting to college and keeping on top of your homework.
It will balance out. And your Mom doesn't mean to make you unhappy, she just worries. Don't feel bad about it, part of growing up is allowing our relationships with parents to change. You'll be okay, I'm sure of it. You're someone who thinks about her experience, who records it faithfully and accurately, who keeps on trying. You will be okay.
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Here I sit so patiently
Waiting to find out what price
You have to pay to get out of
Going through all these things twice.
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