My husband and I have been together for 3 years. I've known all along that he's an alcoholic and he was good at staying sober until about a month ago. He drinks when I'm at work, and I can smell it on his breath and lately he lies about it when I ask. I am in recovery myself for various drugs and when he drnks all I can think about is getting high for revenge. I told him that's what I think, and he said that I had better not. I know it's a disease, as is drug abuse, but I get sooooo !! I'm torn. I grew up with an alcoholic step father and I refuse to live with an alcoholic husband, I know it only brings heartache. I'm at a loss and don't know how to cope with this. I am in serious danger of relapse since it is the only way I know how to deal with problems.