Thanks for the replies.

I made it through & saw an alcohol & drug counsellor (also a psych nurse) yesterday. She has recommended I see the same Dr again who gave me the BP2 dx a few years ago, so he can see the pattern/continuity of my difficulty & made a follow up appointment for a week. Unfortunately the Dr is on holiday at the moment so I have to wait it out till he gets back. In the meantime I have been given the number for an inpatient centre that specializes in dual disorders (mood/psych + alcohol & drugs) which I can check myself into if I want, however may also be a waiting list.

Now I just need to decide whether I want to do this. I have some reservations, as I researched it and many patients are there because the court has ordered them to be. From previous experience, such people aren't really wanting treatment themselves and can be dangerous to be around (they still want to live their lifestyle and are angry the court is trying to prevent them).

The other option is keep seeing the A&D centre for counselling and another psych eval, trying meds again etc.

I think I'm just going to sit on my hands for a few days and avoid any bad influences. Hopefully the correct decision will come to me.

Thanks for reading.