Open Eyes

Funny, when I first met her I was so excited and hoping they'd get married... Don't think I should say "out loud" my thoughts about her now... To be honest, this really is AJ's life. He is a grown man...He makes his own decisions when it comes to his "relationships". Is really none of my business.... Which is a relief for me..... I don't want in the middle.. I know more about her than I want to know... And what I do know is that she is controlling, a liar and manipulating.........She does have some good things about her, just right now I can't think of them.......Isn't written in any book that says I have to like her....And I'm not feeling oh so fond of her....... I can get along her..... Trust has been shattered....I will never cause or create any problems with her.......... I will tolerate her as AJ's g/f and maybe someday wife..............As I said earlier, this is AJ's life, not mine.........And it isn't important that I like her or not... as long as AJ is happy..... I can tolerate her and smile and chat and that is about it on my part.....It feels good to let go...............Now that AJ has a doc he can talk to, is much easier for me to let go...........

Just at this point, lol, I can't be in the same room with her, let alone talk to her.......... As the doc said, time might smooth things out....and I am not counting the minutes.... .who knows..........