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Originally Posted by sweepy62
Hey your post makes alot of sense when i first went to therapy i did not know what it was all about, i told my t that i was nervous cuz it was my first time, she said its ok you dont have to be nervous or go at it alone, i asked her what do i do and say, she said whatever you want to share, we are going to develop an intimate therapeutic relationship, at that point i wanted to run away, i been hurt before by friends that i trusted and men and family, so i was not sure if i should go back, now its been a year, damn i have developed some sort of attachment i guess, because i miss her in between sessions, i totally am not wanting that. i dont want to have to miss her and i am totally angry at myself, i never knew what it felt like for someone to listen to me and not be judgemental and now i dont know if i like it, i know its gonna be eventually over, what do i do now?
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It's nice that you've kept a positive attachment. A little over a year ago when I had a strong attachment to my T, he warned me "At some point, something I say or do is going to make you very angry. It won't be intentional and I don't know what it will be but I'm just telling you in advance to expect it so you know it's coming." I didn't believe him at the time. Now I seem to be in the thick of it. He also said back then "Working through the angry feelings and getting through to the other side will be very healing". I'm a bit skeptical because I feel like I've been stuck in this mode for so long without moving an inch towards the other side. Maybe showing him this thread will help. Certain to stir things up at any rate - for better or for worse. Weird thing is - I miss him too, even though he's upsetting me so much.
So, sorry that's a bit long winded - but who knows - that may solve your positive attachment problem. Not sure about the 'missing your T' part. Probably a good question for her.