I haven't discussed my appearance with any of my Ts because I'm too self-conscious, and my current T is a man which would really freak me out. I get what you mean about not thinking you look as bad as you do in some photos. It's not like I think I'm stunning by ANY stretch of the imagination, but I'm not usually focused on how hideous I look all the time. Then I see an awful photo of me and am surprised about how terrible it is! There are a few 'okay' pics of me, but they are from when I'm dressed up and am actually enjoying myself (so spontaneous and genuine happiness, rather than posed cheesy grin).

When I feel really depressed though I do focus on my appearance and dislike leaving the house for that reason. The voices go on about how fat and ugly I am and how hideous everyone around me thinks I am. It doesn't help whether I wear make-up or not. (I'm not very good with make-up anyway because my Mum never showed me how to use it so I don't particularly know what I'm doing.) I look worse without make-up, but then the voices laugh at me harder when I wear make-up, like who am I trying to kid?! I'm also pretty judgemental about appearance (in that I make assumptions about people based on their appearance & behaviours), so I know that there are people out there who *are* judging me on my appearance.

I probably should talk about it with T because I have so many hang-ups about it, but it would freak me out drawing attention to my appearance (by talking about it) with someone else, especially a male T I think you should talk about it if you can rainbow, even say that you don't think she can relate because of her size (although I'm not considered overweight, I do stress about my weight when I go up a dress size due to meds or comfort eating, so she could relate even though you consider her thin).

*Willow*