Yes, I am trying to decide what is important to talk about and what isn't. What will lead somewhere and what won't. Lately, my sessions have been feeling exactly like GIGO. And that's where I think he's wrong in my case wrt free association. If all I have inside is garbage, there's no point free associating that. Better to consciously decide to control the direction the sessions are going in. 'Disorganized thinking' is a common symptom of BPD. If left to my own devices, that's what the therapy will be - completely and utterly disorganized, directionless and fruitless. I'd just like to follow one issue to its logical conclusion. Problem->detailed discussion from all angles->more helpful ways of looking at it->permanent solution....Then->next issue. I feel like there's too much branching out in all directions and everything is being looked at too superficially. It just feels too all over the place and therefore nothing is getting resolved. Sometimes I feel like I've said something so unthinkable that I leave him dumbfounded or something. I did have an experience recently with a family therapist where she was supposed to give us some strategies to help my girls and I get along better and help get the girls to a better place emotionally. Well, the therapist tried one thing, which I thought was ridiculous and I pretty much told her that along with my reasons. After that she refused to provide any more strategies, even though she admitted she had 'lots' more. Three days wasted. I was shocked and infuriated. No doubt that's become a concern for me with my therapy. If one therapist can give up and not bother trying any more strategies, then so can another.

Boy, your sessions sure sound a lot more fun!