You are right. I need to stick with three classes. I am already burning out...

Reviews are normal. I don't know why I am freaking out. I have a 4.00 and was told I am a great writer. My theory professor admitted I understand most of the theories better than her. My cohort calls me, "crazy smart" but also recognizes that I am chaotic and scattered. They think it's funny, but I think they're just as smart (and more organized). However, chaotic is my way, I've come to accept that now. My students generally like me and I love teaching.

I think I might do an independent study this semester with two classes to get started on some research and take a break from taking three classes. My boyfriend told me that if I got a 4.00 then I should probably relax and not care if I get an A- or a B+. However, I do care to an extent; yet, I also know no one is going to ask me my GPA. I need to get the classes done, pass the section exams, and write my dissertation (which is simply the first draft of my first book- it doesn't have to be perfect, but it only has to be done).

Best of luck on your defense.

My one class tonight is a total bust. It was blatant opinion backed up by half-truths. She assigned an opinion piece as the first reading. I would rather read journal articles with contrasting views and discuss the ideas rather than be spoon fed propaganda. It made me angry- Bipolar angry where I was working myself up into a frenzy and couldn't stop thinking about how I can't stand academia sometimes. Thank goodness it's an elective and I can switch to something else. I also talked to my boyfriend and he calmed me down a bit.

I also found out they threw a heavy "convenience fee" on my on-line course that I was sooo excited about. I need to call and see if the $10,000 fee for ONE on-line course is a typo or the real thing. I can't afford $10,000. A $100 fee is fine; but $10,000 is insanity.