I don't think he realizes that he is doing it. But the thoughts are still there, pdoc not in office, I really shouldn't be working, I really should be taking care of me, but I can't seem to tell anyone of what's going on. No one knows of what's going on, or what I'm thinking, which could be bad for me. I should talk with a professional tomorrow, with a new T if I have to... I have to do something quick, before the thoughts consume me.... like they are getting closer to every minute, I've noticed when they consume me, and I have to go inside and try to get away from the thoughts. But I'm scared of what could happen. I'm scared, since I don't have someone to talk to... must see a T in the office, I can't wait any longer.