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Jan 06, 2012, 09:28 AM
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Member Since: Oct 2009
Location: Louisianna
Posts: 1,473
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How do you know (in your personal experience) when you're switching? I ask this because in my past I've mostly been dealing with "blackouts". No memory of anything during the switch. Over the last few years (with a little help from a t for a couple of months) the blackouts have decreased.
I feel like a completely different person. I look in the mirror and "that's not me!". This happens very often. For hours to days at a time. Than I have the spacey thing. Where I feel like I'm being pulled back and away from my body and everything around me. Everything gets quiet, far away, I can't feel anything. Typically I snap myself back into it once I realize it's happening. I've said and done things during these spacey episodes that I don't have any knowledge of doing, I could see it but only barely while it was going on.
I'm thinking about NOT snapping back in. Maybe letting the distance take over and see where that takes me? Perhaps I can go within and make my own little world like others say they do... I just wouldn't know where to begin with that. Either way, what's it like to switch for anyone? I'm just not sure where I'm at right now and I'm not sure how to tell if I'm switching or not... Thanks for any replies. Sorry it's so long, I really did try to make it as short as possible 
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