I'm sorry that you feel you are a fake. My T has always held firm to the fact that, when I feel a fake -as you do when here, being good and supportive- is when I am real and when I feel real -as you do IRL mistreating ppl - that is when you are fake.

You really are a good person, Rap. No one who is consistently supportive to others, ala PC, is a mean person. Nope. You're not convincing me. This IS the real you, I don't care what a misbehaving therapist has convinced you of...if what you wrote that she wrote is correct... she has a problem with self-care..her own problem NOT YOUR FAULT for goodness sake! If you changed what you said she wrote, that's another disorder issue.

Having any disorder does not make you a bad person, imo. Even with the recent events here, those people have real disorders, ones that don't match with what PC is about. One gets to try again, one doesn't.

You, also, get to try again, because you have a disorder. Unfortunately, it appears your T is also on the brink, imo, and should have withdrawn from active therapy for a while. I don't know if you are saying you feel it is all "you" is what she has convinced you of in truth, or it is your interpretation of what you think your T has told you. You know my position on that one.

But the clean slate is nice.