i am sorry you have went through some troubles with finding a right t fit for you that is around.
on the first post, censoring journals. i do that a lot too. as i tend to write more, i have over the years actually started writing , ''ok i am not telling it all'' or even straight at it ''i'm censoring''.
like others have wrote its good to acknowledge... and try to break from.
is there any factors on censoring? like fear another may read or something? if so maybe a locked for your thoughts or a stash place. best wishes