Thank you and thanks a lot for the book suggestion I do have pets actually, five cats to be exact. some who need homes. I even get worried about them to that extent. I'm always afraid they'll eat something they're not supposed to and die. Or jump and miss and die. I know it's all irrational but it doesn't make the fear go away. I've been meaning to get more exercise. It's just hard though. I'm just setting out on my journey to get better and it's going to be a very long trip. Any other book suggestions or coping skills for immediate help? I currently have lavendar oil and it helps me. I just smell it and it calms me down but it doesn't stop the tape in my head. thanks again