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Originally Posted by virtualhugs95
I have just been reffered to an eating disorder specialist since my T doesnt deal with eating disorders and i am scared. I fear they will make me gain weight (even though im a healthy weight NOT LYING) and if its possible i would like to lose maybe a couple more punds and stay at that point. But i know thats not possible since losing a couple more pounds will put me under weight. NOT GOOD. Anyway, does anyone have any ideas on how to cope with potential weight gain. If i can stay as i am, i could live with it, but the untimate goal is not to put on weight as i am a healthy weight (just) anyway. Im so scared. Help?
Another thing, is it unusual that i want to recover but i dont. I have anorexia and bulimia (apparently, i purge my dinner and starve during the day) and im so so so scared of recovering to the point i alomost cried in an exam today. Please help!!
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hi virtual! i JUST read your post and can relate to what you are experiencing. the majority of people can likely "lose a couple pounds" and stay there, but i have found that very hard to do myself. my psychiatrist said it's a "slippery slope." maybe you can relate? from what you've said, it sounds like you are considering the risks involved. if your goal is to STAY at a healthy weight,
you will FIGHT THE URGE to jepordize that. it is also not unusual to want/not want recovery. i am also there. i really try to concentrate on other things besides my weight; interest and care of my family, a special project. it's not easy is it? i, too, want to lose some weight, AND LIKE YOU, am at a healthy weight, AND would be underweight if i did. it's all right to be scared. please keep trying. lamb.