Hi all,
Sorry i have been away for a while. I just dont wanna be outside and I dont wanna be inside. I just wanna isolate myself more and more, and dont really wanna be around people these days . I am not sure if this had to do with my DID or if it is both my DID and my PTSD. SOmething is up and I dont really know what it is. I am so disorganinsed and such a mess in my head. Its too hard to think or focus on anything. I have been really sick for the last two weeks with Pnumonia and my doctor wont do a thing about it. Its not going away with over the counter stuff, and I tell you my doctor is famous for not writing a perscription when you know you really need it.
I am not doing so hot, and have no one around me that i can reallly talk to that understands. I have no friends really and thats really hard for me. Other people on this site seem to have people on the outside that they can trust and talk to, and that is part of what makes me feel kind of out of place in this world in genral. Gee this sure makes me sound like a real looser doen't it.
I am at a stage where I just wanna hide from the world forever. I dont know all i know is that something is up and I cannot figure it out. I am so lost, so alone, and so out of it.
I gotta go, sorry for the post I'm just not up to doing anything lately. I just in an Ugggggh mode. Sorry if that dont make any sense.