Hey this is really hard for me but my uges to cut are really strong right now. I place a really long post in the PTSD section that gives a bit more information on whats going on for me. I talk to my self harming tool alot these days, I know this sounds creepy and scary. Hope i dont freek you guys out. You must think i am crazy. It feels so good to have the coldness of my self harm tool against my skin. I just want to use it to more and more. I hate myself, i am filthy and dirty and not worth it at all!!!!!!!!!!! I hate me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!