Today was my first week of 2x week sessions. I got there said like one thing, and then...NOTHING. He kept trying to engage with me, but nothing was working. I ended up yes'ing him to death. I wouldn't have even realized it until he spazzed out and yelled at me to stop yes'ing him. I wasn't even answering his questions correctly. He was trying his hardest to keep me present, but I just wasn't there. I had no words for him. I was so anxious I couldn't focus on ANY thing but being anxious. AND his stupid clock ticking away next to me (that I imagined breaking several times, while I was there) I felt like the WORST client ever just sitting there hiding in my coat. He kept suggesting things but I either didn't really hear him or didn't care. He said he couldn't read me at all today. I hope this never happens again. I feel so bad. I wish I would have tried harder. I sent him an apology right after for wasting his time. He replied that I never do. It made me feel a little better.

What went so wrong??? I never shut down. It was my first time in his other office...maybe that had an affect on me? I feel so crappy now.