I'm pretty sure I have some traits of asperger, I never got diagnosed because I can cover up those issues really well!
I suffer from depression and I wonder if I might should talk to my doc about those, what I think are, asperger issues? I'm sure the frustration influences my depression!
As long as I remember I kind of learned somehow all social behavior. For example I'm not asking people how they are because I want to know, I do because that's what everyone does. I have an extreme lack of empathy and people usually call me "cold"! I cannot image how other people feel, even though I try!
I have a hard time to feel sorry for people.
I usually focus on some specific subject and I want to learn everything about it.
To other people I look normal, besides the being "cold"!
I really hate the friendly thing or that I cannot feel emotions when I hear about tragedies, it makes me feel different than other people and I think that leads to my depression!
I'm married, I love my husband, I have problem expressing my feelings because often I dont have any or can not interpret them myself!
What should I do? Ask a doctor and might risk a diagnosis or just keep pretending like all of my life and hoping I will learn to deal with it? I'm really confused!
FYI just found the autism spectrum test, I scored 40!