Hi Renee,

I can't give you much more than support right now. You do have an incredible burden to deal with and I feel very deeply for you. And having no one at home to support you doesn't help. I would like to suggest one thing to you, and forgive me for being nosey. I think you really need to sit and think about what it is want for you and your children and come up with a gameplan. You made the comment that without your husband you'd be left all alone with no one, no money, etc. First, I'm not suggesting that you leave your husband, but if he's not willing to work on your relationship and and spend time with you, aren't basically alone anyway? And with your physical disabilities and limitations, I'm sure that you and your children would be eligible for aid from the state so you could move, to one maybe where you could be closer to friends or family.

I guess basically what I'm trying to say is that the best help for you right now would be getting you into a situation that would put you in a better frame of mind. I'm sure that there are options out there to what you have now. Please give some thought to what you'd like to do and see if you can get in touch with some people to assist you. Don't suffer any more than you have to.

Welcome to the forums, I'm glad you found us.

bptoo

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