Hi LovesShelly, I know exactly what you are saying and I've felt the same way - around people I suppose I'm happy and getting along just fine though alone I'm tormented and erratic... I do know that even around people in these seemingly jovial moods I'm not truly content or able to just "be", however.
These two people seem so dischordant on the outside - it's hard not to feel like a fraud that should be able to pick herself up and be the jovial person I am in public all the time.
Thanks for your post, it helps to know that someone else experiences that feeling of almost being "okay" in social situations too. It's like a decoy "okay" though...