thanks for your emotional support.

i live in NYC and am a native NYer. but, i don't fit in here - i am not competitive enough. i feel like i belong in a small town, not a big city.

i had an emergency meeting with my T today. my resiliency is not has strong as it used to be. i am not bouncing back. my problems overwhelm me so that i don't make a good impression with people. granted, they are not aware what i'm going through. and, i don't want to tell people all my troubles. it's a quandry. my T is trying to save me but i am not sure that i am saveable. i continue to be despondent and overwhelmed.