Afraid of getting better. I've been doing fairly well for a few weeks now and it is frightening me! It's like I don't know how to act. I'm afraid that others might expect too much from me. I'm afraid of falling again, it happens so often, just when I start to feel better, then it hits me, and harder each time. I wish I could figure out who I am, independent of the labels. I wish I could just be myself and feel ok with that. I'm afraid that won't happen, and if it does, it won't stay. I'm afraid of living life. I don't know how and I don't know how to learn and I don't know how to not mess it up.
Sorry, just thinking, probably too much! Anyway, just me and my thoughts.